I do not have a choice in how God made me. He made me, me. I can’t change my life path because others expect it of me. I can’t live in others delusions and illusions.
Nobody is bitter I’m just fed up with carrying the world on my back alone. My patience over the last 8 years is ZIP.
Wait let me read that again…pain is not how you grow.
Here let me stomp on you, “NOW GROW” I’m sorry I don’t fucking think so.
My natal Pluto is in Scorpio, Transitting Pluto is in Aquarius. My natal Sun is in Aquarius.
Well needless to say I’m a little pissed tf off.
Oh Lord I’m in for it now. I am who I am, not WHO I THINK I SHOULD BE. I won’t change that for ANYONE. Anyone who expects me to change myself for you. That would essentially be myself calling myself a liar and not being true to me. Which I will always be true to me. My life path is not easy. God made me for a reason. He apparently knew that this time in history would come about and he chose me for it. I don’t understand it and even I don’t agree with it at times. I ask him all the time why me? Why did you choose me? Trust me, God and I have had some EXTREMELY heated arguments and even though I don’t like his answers. I’ve yelled, cried, cursed him out, been mad at him, he just stands firm in his creation and doesn’t budge, I love him even though I don’t understand completely, so I seek for the answers inside of myself to do what it is he asked and has created me for, and NO it’s not easy. It’s REALLY HARD and if you knew the shit I’ve been through. Truly people wouldn’t make it so damn hard. If I don’t do and walk as God has laid my path out for me. I forsake EVERYTHING, myself, the world, and everyone else that counts on me. It’s not a choice that I have. You wanna know what else. I don’t pretend to be perfect and I wouldn’t wanna be I’m gonna let all of me shine through even my sins. As opposed to the perfect “CHRISTIAN” who sits in a pew on Sunday mornings acting perfect but on the inside they just aren’t. “HYPOCRITES” is what I call them. There is nothing God doesn’t already know beforehand. Period. So why hide?
Astrological Transits and Poetry 
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